It’s OK to Just Be OK (Or: How Many Times Can One Use “OK” in a 249-Word Blog Post?)

This’ll be quick: it’s really just a Tuesday-night self-reminder that it’s OK to be how I am, in this moment, without getting down on myself about the fact that I’m not “progressing” in the way I imagined I would be a year ago. It’s OK to allow myself moments of frustration and anger, as long as I try not to dwell on the negative. It’s OK to have different goals than I used to, to slow down, to take care of myself so that I can recover. It’s OK that because of my brain injury, going on a Menchie’s date for frozen yogurt with a friend is a significant accomplishment for me (for the record, the fro yo was delicious and the company was fantastic). It’s OK to doubt that everything will continue to be OK, that my brain will heal as it should and that it doesn’t have another surprise in store for me.

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It’s also OK to put cereal that looks like dog food on your frozen yogurt. (Please note that this is a major departure from my usual selection: one flavour, no toppings.)

I’m usually OK with the fact that my priorities have by necessity shifted, but it’s not always easy to accept that my life is limited right now. While I continue to adjust to this reality, and while I look ahead to my neuro rehab program, I think it’s OK to not try to be more than OK. OK, for now, is just fine.

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5 thoughts on “It’s OK to Just Be OK (Or: How Many Times Can One Use “OK” in a 249-Word Blog Post?)

  1. It is very frustrating! That’s true! But, you have done so well with your weekly physio, daily(?) exercises, and you’re building up your motor skills again. The results may not be obvious immediately, but nothing worthwhile comes easy. Others may take speed or mundane tasks for granted, but you tackling it again head on makes you smarter. Think of it this way, your neurons are relearning and reconnecting in ways that it knows how (muscle/neuron memory?), but the processing and the steps it takes, may lead you to think in new ways. Like how inventors, engineers, artists, and teachers do. Just a few examples of types of people who have to be creative (you being an Italian teacher! It’s more than just grammar…)

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